I wish my blog could have the application to record sound. I wanna scream out loud randomly, as a sign of freedom and at the same time, being constrained by my very own self.

24hours earlier, I do think that on 18th February 2010 exactly at 6.00 p.m., I could make the largest grin ever on my face and taste the feeling of enjoying that very moment, which is the feeling of being free from another mega fucking test.

The test has caused me to sleep annoyingly for trying to understand and memorized some phrases/articles that can be categorized as one of the few most boring shit in the world. And I got my eyes turned red for the consequence, and I don't even understand or memorized a single word from the articles.

And the test is as sucks as reading the articles.

So here I am now. Again and again, writing on my blog to express my feeling whenever my heart sense a feeling called HATRED. This post is all about hatred.

A day before, I am celebrating my 21st birthday partially. I am not really into this birthday stuff especially when it is me who play the role as the birthday boy (although I am not considered as a boy anymore). But my friends (especially on facebook) and family seems to be so benevolent in wishing me happy birthday. Many thanks to all of you, I really appreciate it.

I wonder, how am I gonna act as a 21 years old guy? Should I wear slacks everytime instead of jeans? Talking with kind of "romantic" voice whenever a word spit out from my mouth? Should I get my hair looked more shiny?

Suddenly, I feel like not being my own self. Coz I never thought about these stupid stuff before.

I better stop before its getting more boring.

Last word, "FUUUUUUUUUUUUCKKK!!!"

This is what I wanna scream out loud.

Later.

After hibernating for quite a long time, finally I started to write again. But actually I don't have any idea what to write about.

If I read someone's else blog which stated the very same meaning or situation, i mean, kinda similar to my blog (which is most of the time the writer will say that he don't know what to write about), I'll call the person "STUPID". And I believe people out there will eject countless word of "STUPID" when they read my blog. I am one of them.

I will be having my debate tomorrow, which supposed to be today, but magically postponed for a day with the reason which I cannot state here.

I am now begin to count my days left in here.. In UiTM Kedah as a Pre-Law student. For sure, I'll miss every moment I spent here without considering the good or bad or super bad or mega sucks time. I'll miss them all.

I've lost interest in many things which I was very excited before. Example, soccer.. I found myself turning into a breathing zombie as time goes on. I should die quickly. Someone please kill me.

I have something in my heart now. And I can't find anyone who I can trust to hear my sickness, my wickedness inside me.

I feel like a robot who is programmed to do everything in his "life". I can't do what I want, even if I really want to and willing to kill for it. Coz if I do so, people around me might get hurt.

I am sick.

Later.