The Perfect Time to Say Goodbye

When I broke up with Wanie 2 years ago, most of my friends told me this:
The perfect time to say goodbye to a girl is when you feel that you can't even live without her. When your feeling reach at that point, then it'll be the perfect time to you to say goodbye to her.

Then I ask them, "And why is that?".

"Because girls always think about living with their Mr. Perfect. That is their most important goal in their life. But they never realize that there are no Mr. Perfect in this world. And they themselves are not even close to become 'Miss Perfect'. So when you are doing that to a girl, it is NOT A WRONG DID. You are helping them actually, helping them to open their eyes and see the world."

And I always replied this to them, "those words are cool, but I don't think that I was made for that. I still love Wanie though, I'll love her for my entire life. Because a real man will always love and protect their beloved, and there are no condition that will excuses him for doing that. I believe Wanie is gonna miss me soon, and she'll contact me. I love her, and I want to marry her."

"Owh.. Come on.. What are you? You sounds like a girl. Girl like that doesn't exist in this world. Move on, bro. You'll get through this."

And I said "no".

I realize that most of human in this world nowadays think like that, no matter he or she. And as a precaution, I only talk about the girl I love with my bestfriend, the cigarettes. I don't wanna beat my friend just because a girl thing.

Time goes by, and it seems like the time itself want me to realize that I am wrong. This is it? Am I wrong? Am I suppose to say goodbye now?

I want to be the Mr.Perfect for you, if that is what is you are seeking for.
I want to love you with my entire heart.
I want to scream as loud as I could, and tell the world that I love you.

But I am not a robot.. I wish I am, if that is a good thing for you.
But I can't.

I am still a man, a man with pride and dignity.
A single word~regret.
If you regret anything about "changing into better person" just because I made a silly mistake.. A mistake that I made because I need you that time, then I'll give you these words. And it is not "fuck you" or "go to hell".

This is the perfect time for you to say goodbye to me.

Cause I am not making you happy, but I am making you regret of your own did. It hurts me millions times more than anything else.

So goodluck, and take care.
Bye.