The Sweetest Dream Ever

8 days before the final examination, and the only thing I know is nothing. But I have no intention to talk about it.

Last night was.. Unexplainable. I had this unspeakable, unexplainable, and.. Fuck. I have no idea how to describe it. I had a dream, about Wanie.

In all of sudden, I found myself in a room, sitting tightly with Wanie beside me. Its weird.. I was suddenly switched into the mute mode, the silent mode. I can't say a thing. She smiled, and I was.. Yup. Once again, I cannot describe it.

She hold my hand, my right hand. She said that I don't have to worry now, because she is fine. And she is very happy with her life now. So let her go, and just concentrate in my own life now..

For me, this is the end. Everyday, everytime, I always worried about her.. She is a girl which is made with the finest touch, and a girl who has the brightest heart in this world. And ever since we stop seeing each other, I always, I mean, everyday worried about her. Because I am very happy with my own life now, eventhough I am still as sucks as ever. Eventhough I am still stupid, or maybe even more stupid than ever. But the point is, I already found what I want. And at the same time, having the most precious "thing" in the world.. I want her to taste the same feeling as I do. That's why I always thinking about her.

Wanie, if you do read my stupid post.. I just want to say sorry.. I should have done better. But I believe you know me really well, so you know how stupid I am.. Just go, live your own wonderful life. Even I can't see you again, my prayers will always be with you. And thanks.. For everything. Even the word "everything" is too small to describe the things that you and your family have done for me.

I don't know what happened in the real world. Maybe I am the top in her most-hated-people list. I don't know, and I don't care either..

Some people might say that this is a lie, because it doesn't happen in the reality.. But for me, it is no longer a lie if I do believe it.. And this is also one of the reason why the word "stupid" has the same definition as the word "Willson Peter". The dream is the end for me.

My sweetest dream ever.
Later.