enjoying myself as a human

My older brother's home. And that means:
1. I can't take my shower with the door open anymore
2. My friends cannot come here and enjoy football macth together (EPL is over however)
3. I have to share the wifi connection that I stole from my neighbour with him
4. I can't sing while taking shower (I'm shy,you know)
5. I can't scream or punch the door whenever I'm boring or turn crazy (yeah,once again,I'm a shy guy)

But.. There's more than just that, actually. I f you know what I mean. He is my older brother. And we didn't live in the same place that we call "home" for many years of our life. But still, still.. He is my brother. Maybe I never do anything so-called BIG things(replace *things* with any other suitable word.. My english sucks) to comfort him. Actually I think I never do to any of my family members.. Haha. yeah, I'm the black ship. The faggot. Just now I showed him the page that I joined earlier.. The "Edward Cullen is Ugly" group on facebook. Haha..

And here it comes. The bad thing. You should've knew that I'm just writing on my blog if I was struck by the big-fart-of-the-satan. That means I'm stress. Huh. I'm kinda a person who has multiple personality.. Like Jekyll and Hyde maybe? Damn, I thikn I jsut spelllee it wronge. Haha.

Back to the main point. The "Edward Cullen is Ugly" on facebook. Something just..happened because of that. And even I regard my blog as a place,or maybe as a friend to release the faggot inside me, it's not really my style to write it in details. That's not cool. It's kinda "help, I'm in troble, please read my blog and ask me whether I'm okay or not. Anyone,please??". And that is one of the reason why I don't have many followers.. I never ask people to follow my blog.

But yes, I do have a problem. Now. And it's still not over yet. It's far from over. And yes, I do crying. Hey, even a superman will cry, don't he?

And now I try to be okay. Pretending, maybe. I don't really care. What I want the most, is.. Be happy. Owh, I know it. I sound like a retard. But don't you read my warning on the above? I said this page is only for retard, fool!!

Hah.. So now I am happy. I try to remind myself.. THIS IS LIFE, THIS IS NOT A LEGO SET. *but why lego??* I want to live a happy life.. And I am very sure everyone is wishing the same. So people, let's work on it. Leave behind your sadness, throw away your desperation, and raise your happy hands up high.. And we scream together "I AM HAPPY TO BE WHAT I AM!!". Well.. You can forget about raising your hands up I guess.. That doesn't look cool. Haha.

I've lost enough in my life.. I've lost my batman toy. I've lost my teeth (when I was 4), I've lost my underwear when I went swimming with my cousins many years ago. I've lost my dignity when I was kicked out(intentionally) from Matriculation College. I've lost my life after that.. And I've lost my love too.

But remember, everyone'll lose something in their life. And it's not that something that counted.. It's about how strong we are to get better.

I don't want to be a weakling.. That's not cool. What about you?

For the first time, I would like to thank my blog.


Later.